Back From Outer Space

I’m finally back from my recent work hiatus, I’m sorry for leaving you all with so few updates lately. I know people can start to feel disillusioned when fan-driven projects like this go quiet, and the Daggerfall community is sadly all too familiar with that silence. You have all placed a great deal of trust in me to continue leading this project, and the last thing I want to do is lower that trust. So for transparency sake, I’ll give you a quick overview of why I’ve been so quiet lately.

Our life briefly derailed when my wife was let go from work at the end of August 2017. Like a lot of couples these days, we need two incomes to make ends meet. At first this didn’t seem like a big deal. She has multiple degrees and lots of experience, and has never had trouble finding work in the past. We reasoned a new job wouldn’t be far away and tightened belts enough to ride out a couple of months. When late October rolled around and we were still living on a single income, that’s when reality started to sink in. I run a small business that doesn’t typically bring in much work over the holiday period, and the job market was likewise getting slimmer by the day. Suddenly we were facing the prospect of falling behind by end of December. And by “falling behind”, I mean not being able to pay the mortgage or keep the lights on by New Year.

So around the end of October, I had to crank up the machinery of my little business as much as possible and pull in as much work – any work – I could find. I was hoping just to bridge the gap until early 2018 when the local job market picked up again and with luck we’d both be in work again soon. Of course, the result of this is that I didn’t have the time or mental focus to put anywhere else than staying above the red line. If I did get some free time, I was too absorbed with the situation to really be productive. And to top it all off, I came down with a shocker of a flu in November that put me on my ass for a bit.

By the end of November things were starting even out to a kind of new normal. I even tried getting back into the project a few weeks ago, but some of those work commitments kept weighing me down and sapping my focus. Anyway, we caught a break last week when my wife landed a new job. We have an added full-time income again and my extra work puts us right about where we would have been with two incomes in December anyway. Just with a lot more stress involved. I feel incredibly grateful to have made it this far and for now life can start returning to normal. I’m also grateful we both have our health and so much love in our life. I know a lot of people are doing it so much harder this time of year.

As of now, my extra work commitments have wrapped up until January. I’m even able to take a few weeks off over the Christmas through New Year stretch. Today is officially my first day off and the first weekend in three months I haven’t had to stress over how we’ll make our way through the upcoming week. I celebrated last night by taking myself out for ramen and a giant beer. It was just about the best feeling in the world.

I still need a bit of time to decompress, and the season will also keep me busy in a different (much better) way. But I’m anxious to get back to work on Daggerfall Unity as soon as I can. There are some pull requests on github I need to review and merge thanks to tireless contributors Allofich, Nystul, and TheLacus. From the bottom of my heart: thank you for the work you’ve all added the last few months. You guys absolutely rock my world. I think if anything happened to me, this project would still be in good hands with the quality people that have attached themselves to it.

But for now, I’m going to just chill a little and get my head straight. Let some of that stress fall away. Maybe play some video games.

Here’s wishing everyone a happy holidays and all the best for 2018!

Posted in Daggerfall Unity, Workshop News.

12 Comments

  1. Man that explanation wasn’t necessary but happy to hear everything worked out and that you have the chance to take a much needed breather. The project will be just fine on ice a bit longer, especially with its open nature and the additions of the great contributors you mentioned. Happy holidays!

  2. It’s always heartwarming to hear a good ending for stories like this. Take a well deserved break and get back to us with twice the enthusiasm you always had (if that’s even possible!). Your work is amazing and I’d love to read another update regarding the project, but of course life comes first! Cheers for a new better future for you, and for Daggerfall :]

  3. So glad to hear your wife and you are doing better. I had faith in you the whole time and not even once thought this project was in danger of being abandoned.

  4. Glad to hear things worked out in the end! And ofcourse, take your time, we’ll still be here. (I’ve been around since 2011) XD

  5. Don’t worry guy. Take all the time you need to get things back in place. We need you at 100% to crack out that spell system.!
    You really don’t need to apologize but I’m glad to hear from you again.

  6. Hey man !
    I’m very sad to hear that someone with a brain like you can suffer income-wise 🙁 I know exactly what you’ve been through, I’m very happy that things got right in the end for both of you.

    Also you did so much in so little time, don’t be shy to take a break ! You came from nothing to a fully playable game in less than 3 years. Your last live build was the November 5. You are far away from Lucius level. We’re so close and yet so far from finish, but I know you will pull this off. You prove me that a long time ago.

    Have a great Christmas mate, and a very happy new year. Hope to cast some neato fireballs with light effects next year !

  7. Sorry to hear about your struggles, the job market sucks and the end of the year is the worst time to have something like that happen. Glad to hear you guys have landed back on your feet. Enjoy yourself and have a happy holidays!

  8. Oh I had no idea things were this serious. Im very happy for you and your wife, that finally things got more relaxed and stable. As someone said, its saddening that someone with the skills like you can face such a difficulties, but thats the reality of life in 2017 I guess.. I had never doubted that you will return or more precisely, I never thought u might abandon this project at all. Your focus and drive has been so solid that I know u can finalize this huge undertaking. Something everyone be4 you has failed to do. I wish you everything good in life, dont hurry anywhere, no pressure boss… see you in 2018. Thank you and thanks to the whole extended team of DFU!!

  9. JFC life can be rough. Good luck, and I wish the community was larger because then you could just Patreon.

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